Where to start… Bad Idea #2

Okay, I know it’s been a long time since I posted.  Well I suppose at first it was because I really had nothing on my mind that needed to come out.  Then there were trickles of thoughts about posting, but thinking that no one really reads this I was discouraged.  I have sent various emails, anonymously, to females I have known or known.  I always think later that was a really bad bad idea.  But then I go do it again.

Last time I wrote to a woman I thought was really beautiful, she’s a friend of an old girlfriend.  I have no contact with this person anymore, only have her email address, nothing else.  So I emailed her and asked her what she thought about men crossdressing.  I didn’t quite put it that way but asked for her opinion on the subject more or less.  Then well…  I signed my real name.

Geeze, I couldn’t believe I did that.  I also did not give her the link to my blog.  That might be the only good thing about that.  So far I have not heard from her or my old girlfriend whom I do speak with occasionally still.

What a stupid thing to do.

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About Crossdressing

It’s been several days since I last posted.  Lots of things going on lately, mostly with my job.  Sometimes I wish I could retire but I’m not quite there yet.

The other day the thought of why I like to crossdress came whizzing by. I have been trying to read some other blogs about other crossdressers.  What I found was not what I expected.  A large majority of them were not really about crossdressing, they just tagged their blog with it I guess, to attract more visitors.  Don’t know really.  But I did find real blogs about other crossdressers.

One blog in particular caught my attention the most.  He has a nice blog and has been writing for a long time.  He has a wife who participates and approves as well.     He went on to explain how dressing as a woman was relaxing for him, a way to escape his normal ‘male world’.  When dressing as a woman he said he was able to leave all the concerns with his male persona.

This thought about relaxing rang a bell for me.  I thought, ‘hum… ya actually it is relaxing to wear lingerie’.   I believe I briefly mentioned before how I like the feeling the lingerie gives me of being squeezed in a way.  Like someone is holding me almost, a woman.

What grabbed my attention is that he stated he just enjoyed being dressed up as a woman and becoming a woman briefly.  That does not happen to me.  I feel sometimes more masculine.  I’m not trying to be a woman or look like a woman.  I am just a man who likes lingerie.  I believe the reason for feeling more masculine is that I become more masculine because I have on women’s lingerie.  Not that I’m trying to counteract the wearing of it but maybe because I’m more aware of myself.  Then could it also be from guilt or shame?  I don’t feel that as much now but maybe that plays in there too.

There is this another part point the blogger addressed that interested me.  He said for him he derives no sexual pleasure from wearing women’s clothing.  That’s different for me.  I do get sexual pleasure from wearing women’s clothing.  The parts of my body the lingerie is touching tingles and in places more so than others.  I like to rub myself from the outside of my panties as well, keeping myself hard for long periods if I can.  I especially like being seen by women while wearing just lingerie.  That hasn’t really happened since it would upset my girlfriend.  Though, I did wear a woman’s swimsuit in front of my girlfriend and her friend when we got in the hottub together.

While writing this I’ve been sitting in just a pair of beige panties I bought today and a beige bra.  I’ll have to remove the bra when my girlfriend comes home from work.  But later tonight I have to work late again during the night so I’ll have another chance to wear something else.

I’ll have to write again soon about my latest purchases.

Till then,
Lucee.

New Bras

Well I ordered some new bras that just came in today.  I’ve waited all week for them.  It makes me excited to wear them.  I bought four but one is on back order.  I’ve been a little anxious too since I didn’t want my girlfriend to find the package in the mail.  Today is Friday so I was getting a little nervous they might not show up until tomorrow.  Luckily, they did arrive today!

Here are pictures of the ones that came today.

This one I have in white.

I bought this one in black.

This one I ordered in the beige color shown.

This is the bra that is back ordered, it’s in white.

L

My Black Bra

I don’t really know why but I love to wear bras. I have this one black bra that I really do like to wear. It makes my skin tingle everywhere the bra touches. I like that feeling. And if I get a little high that tingling feelings is amplified. Why not enjoy it!

I should be doing some work right now but I wanted to put my bra on first.  The way it squeezes feels good too.

Is it really wrong for a man to enjoy wearing a bra?  It does seem odd because from what I’ve heard most women can’t wait to take the thing off.

Here’s a picture I just took of me wearing my black bra.

Me in my black bra.

I know it’s not the most sexy thing a man could wear but hey it feels good.  Though it would be nice if women thought men were sexy in lingerie like this.

L